Written by a Ventura County high school student.
Recently I wrote an essay about a book I recently read, and my essay was about redemption — making a comeback to make up for the mistakes of your past. As I finished up the essay I realized how much I could apply this to my life.
After my expulsion from my old school, from mistakes I made as a result of depression and simply no longer caring, I began to wonder if I have redeemed myself. I believe redemption begins within yourself — forgiving yourself is a way to move on. Afterwards you must make the effort to make it right again, to fix the injuries you caused upon others around you. I have tried my best to satisfy the others and let those injuries heal to make up for my mistakes, but I do not know if I forgive myself for my stupidity. I don’t know if I ever will, but I will accept my past and carry on, because I have to, not for myself, but because there are others who have put too much faith into me. The idea of giving them any more harm is something I could not bear, so although I don’t believe I have redeemed myself, I am still trying, and always will try, to satisfy that need, to make others happy.
Everyone has made their share of mistakes, it isn’t all about the mistakes you made though, and it is about how you fix them. How you forgive yourself and how you make it right again. Something that isn’t easily taught, it’s something that is learned, through guilt, and determination, people can learn how to fix their actions and how to move on. It’s a simple lesson, but it’s a essential one I think everyone has to learn at one point or another.